My mother struggled with addiction and mental illness; as a result I was born with neonatal abstinence syndrome.
Since I can remember sexual, physical, and substance abuse were a normal part of life. My mother returned home when I was 11 she died a year later. At the age of 12 I started experimenting with drugs and alcohol. By age of 15 “the street life” became my world. A teen mom by age 17, life was fast and reckless. By 25 I was a single mother of two with a raging addiction, I was barely hanging on. Day and night my mind was consumed with thoughts of death, I wanted out.
Unknown to me at the time, God was preparing my way of escape. One afternoon I turned on the television to a preacher talking directly to me. Awestruck and dumbfounded, by the end of the program I was laying face down on my floor. Engulfed by the presence of God, so bright it blinded me. I don’t know how long I laid there but when I got up death had released me, those tormenting thoughts were gone. For the first time in a long time I wanted to live. From that day my life has never been the same. For over a decade The Holy Spirit has been faithfully loving me into wholeness.
(To the fatherless, the motherless, the orphan those who feel abandoned and rejected, The Father sees you and He loves you. He will never leave you or forsake you, trust Him.)
John 9 talks about the man born blind, who sinned him or his parents? Neither, it was to see the glory of God!
Out of great suffering comes beauty!
SCREAM SHOUT YELL it out!
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